This weekend I went though Initial Instructor training for Les Mills' BodyCombat. Here were my thoughts on Friday evening after I had packed my bags and was gearing up mentally for the training ahead:
I've packed my bag and I've reviewed my choreography. I am nervous, excited and scared. I know this training has the potential to change my life if I let the opportunities happen. It feels like ages ago and just yesterday I was going through the same sense of fear and excitement as I prepared for my BodyPump initial certification training. I remember obsessing over all the little things but overlooking the most important part of it all: the journey. Little did I realize how my life would change as a result of those two days and the amazing experiences that have followed.
As all the times before, I was focused on the end result, earning the all important PASS on the Assessment. That is, until a friend and fellow Les Mills Instructor, Monika gave me some incredible advice:
"Enjoy the journey."That really and truly stopped me in tracks. In the past, I was only concerned about the final outcome. My BodyPump Certification, my CXWORX, even my AIM2 training - ALL I cared about was the rating I received at the end. How did I measure up? Was I good enough? Did I WOW my trainers sufficiently? Did I do it better, faster and stronger than everyone else?
I completely and utterly missed the most important part of all of these experiences. I missed the journey. But not this time. I absorbed myself in the journey this time around. I stayed in the moment. I listened, I shut my mouth and heard what others were saying. I tried to learn from EVERYONE around me and what they were experiencing. But, I stayed in tune with my journey as well. When I started obsessing (as I usually do) with whether or not I was going to be successful at the end, I would write myself a little note that the journey is a process. It doesn't really have an endpoint. Regardless of what happened on Sunday afternoon, the path is still open and in front of me to continue moving forward. I also remembered that I survived getting the lowest possible outcome on my AIM2, and, in fact, that was the best thing to happen to me in my Instructor experience.
This weekend I worked harder than I ever have in another training. Some of it was because our trainer, Jake McLendon, is the best at what he does and has the ability to push me (and the rest of us) well outside our comfort zones and then coach us through. Some of it was because I wanted to be sure that the time my mentor, Bri, had spent with me wasn't wasted. But, lastly, I wanted to prove something to myself. Every other training, I held back from the start. I was so afraid of failing that I wouldn't force myself outside of my known limits. This time, I walked into the master class on Saturday morning and knew I was going to give 110%. Would that mean my form and technique later in the day might suffer because of muscle fatigue? Probably. Could going full out from the start possibly jeopardize my Pass rating? Almost certainly. I did it anyway. I wanted to experience every bit of this training and experience and leave no regrets on the floor behind me as I left Sunday evening.
The outcome, I realized, is NOT the journey. It is merely a brick on the path. A significant brick, but a brick none the less.
To Jake, Bri, Tina, Summer, Jordan, Thelma, Christy, Sarah and Danielle - thank you for being part of my journey. Each of you are so incredibly amazing and powerful. Monika, thank you for opening my eyes to the most important part of this process.
The journey is just getting started.